Summary: As many names as her soul can go by, she always
holds one man close to her heart. The man is sometimes a boy, other, a distant
relative, but love has varying expressions. Finally, they would find theirs.
Perils could come; their forces were complete.
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/Fin’amor: Older, more liberal
Latin equivalent for " courtly love".
Basically, a passionate love never consumed, by choice.
Heteromance: Here, consensually
romanticized friendship between man and woman./
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If there was one thing she had come to know over her mortal
years, it was the heart of her Hero.
She clearly remembered the day he had returned to her, a man
again, with a newfound assurance in his steps, a testimony of maturity instead
of bloodshed. Thus he had come, and this time, he brought back masks.
He had presented her a Zora, a Deku child, and a warrior whose powers surpassed any she
could have held herself, eons back. She would never see them, since he could
only borrow their species' features when donning them.
.
He had seen and lived many different things though his
travels... But she had long been rid of the frustration of not being able to
explore them herself. Now, only a melancholic curiosity filled her heart while
he told her, so she did what she could, taking great care of his possessions -
just in case he forgot to tell her about one artifact
or another endowed with sentience.
She knew each mask was inhabited by a spirit to whom he,
alone, could communicate. They were now friends, he had said, and she may have
found herself a little jealous for all of her well-meaning. That was before he
told her their tales.
Of all of his masks, the old demigod frightened her. It was
an enthralling being with a strong aura that seemed to pull at her magic. The
Deity made her edgy in more than one way. He made her question herself and her
body’s response to a now married man.
.
Shortly after his return, Link had been content to settle in
a peaceful romance with the pretty heir of the ranch. Their marriage had been
brief and discreet; only a handful of people gathered in the Temple of Time,
including herself, hidden under the dark hood of a commoner. He had already
warned her not to even think about making it a ceremonial event, which it
surely would have ended as with the Queen in attendance.
It didn’t change anything, she had told herself. It was Hylia’s eyes that haunted him, and only those that her hero
had ever known to bring with him in his distant adventures. He might have come
back, but she knew -didn’t she?- what belonged to them
would /-could-/ never change.
Of course she counted the days every time he left. Yes, she
used to scout for his mind at telepathic range each time his duty as commander
required him to depart the castle. Yes, she missed him, and not only because
she needed a reason to slide off the weight of her crown for the span of a few
hours. She could say it was because he was the only person she could truly call
a friend that every month without him became painful to bear /and that would
have been part of the truth./
.
The Zora Mask’s ability to swim
was a sight to behold. One that reminded her of a man who balanced the complete
Triforce in his heart, with a
sailcloth at his waist and a different ring upon his hand. Not the same,
/never the same-/ but then again, neither was she.
This time, he was the husband of a beautiful girl who could
offer him peace of mind in a simple love, at least. /Only a word; she needed
nothing more. He would have easily severed this bond to please Hylia, wouldn’t he?/
/-Even if she didn't offer-/
Such fleeting thoughts could have frightened her sometimes.
/-would he only hesitate? -/ And it
would have in a few of her past lives; times when she didn't remember anything
of her own heritage and history.
Not that she would ask him that absurd sacrifice. Her chosen
hero had long deserved his solace, and she had long sworn to ensure that he got
it.
It is comforting to know that his devotion is a constant;
that somehow, his soul belongs to her and her alone. It was this silent
knowledge that stoked the fire through their affections; this fealty had always
been her most precious possession as far as the other Goddesses allowed her to
remember. She couldn’t recall for how long she had thrived in and on it.
In their current incarnations, though, there had never been
anything physical between them. She had been a comrade-in-arms, a friend, and
was becoming a confidant. Each of these roles carried unvoiced truths, strong
and passionate ones that, solely, allowed her to give Malon
her blessings.
Yet, neither the secrets of how a fairy boy acquired a
soldier's Shield, the detail of his travels and fights, nor the exact number of
his scars had been shared with the kind farm girl.
.
Then, there was ‘Sheik’.
Zelda never learnt the Sheikah
ways in the Hyrule they lived in, and thus she never wore a Sheikah
garb. But the muscle memories remained, and she didn't wait long before
choosing another magical disguise. She hadn't given it much thought the first
time she had encountered lost people or wounded merchants across the land, but
the following month, when word of a strange ranger who helped travelers reached her castle walls, she realized she had
been posing as a man.
Out of habit, she supposed. The training and mental
conditioning she had undertaken to mold the identity
of a fictive man wouldn’t leave her mind and body anytime soon. She had felt
embarrassed about the needless lie, but wasn't the disguise itself already one?
Link found it amusing. "You have always been a tomboy, haven’t you? The Sheikah themselves thought so," he claimed. "It
fits you, somehow." When she huffed he grinned "Really, a female
Sheik would have been strange. But...well, with you I would probably
have...accommodated."
"There is no more Sheik," she assured, shifting
from one leg to the other in her firm dark garb. "Only a
shadow." /And the ghost of my freedom,/
fled her though.
But Link stubbornly kept using the name until she finally
got used to it. While it sounded so old in her mind, the way he said it,
/murmured it to her soul,/ sounded strong and
vitalizing. /He knew what he was doing, didn’t he?/
The boy had never truly been one.
Afterward, she greatly prided herself for holding her
tongue. /’Your shadow ’/ would had been as foolish as
misleading for both of them. She has long promised herself never to burden him
with wishes she was the first to refuse and still wasn’t ready to honor.
.
Through the years, the Queen would slide out of her crown as
often as possible to don these darker clothes; but only one people knew why her
preference went to a tight midnight blue grab garnished with throwing knives
and Deku Nuts. She loved to become the shadow of his
steps, living through the sound of his breaths... Also, the character felt closer
to her nature -and getting to spend ever more time with him never hurt.
For some reason, Link never told his wife the true face of
the ranger who had become his best friend in a ridiculously short amount of
time. And when Link would be busy patrolling and giving orders to lazy soldiers
around Hyrule, ‘Sheik’ enjoyed escorting the girl to the market, cutting Deku Baba or grass Octoroks on
their path. She couldn't deny growing some fondness for the girl and her
frequent efforts to remind 'Sheik' why his 'infatuation with her' was
purposeless.
It was hard to sort the exact feelings the girl elicited
from Sheik. She knew they were mostly positive, through, and anyway, the ranger
sound found out that staying indifferent to Malon's
loveliness was simply too hard. It was easy to see why Link had fallen for the
girl.
She often felt sympathy for Malon's
weakness, for her inability to hold a weapon and defend her life. But the girl
didn't seem to mind being rescued times after times, by her husband or even
Sheik. But, perhaps, it was because Malon reminded
her of herself in some way, or some life...
.
Anyway, both as Queen and ranger, the friendship that linked
the hero and her remained as passionate as it was platonic -and she could only
be glad of his wife's trust and acceptance.
"Not so platonic," her maids would whisper through
the castle's corridors. But Zelda was serene. Despite past pretentions and
stubbornness and repeated mistakes, she liked to think that some wisdom could
have finally found a way from the symbol on her hand to her head.
As the years went by, she slowly learned to strip both their
hearts and minds of all changing factors, delving deeper to find what made them
so unmistakably vital to each other; she could see the connection that tied
them so tightly together. Even if she couldn't pretend to comprehend it all,
she had learnt, and she had spent more and more of their time probing and
learning to balance each other.
While their connection remained undeniable, intertwined with
magic and secrets, it was easily tarnished by passion and abuse. Letting go of
regrets and guilt would take time -if the frustrating legacies of past
generations were any indication.
The Princess learnt to channel the magic of their souls, to
get a better grasp of his spiritual fealty, and understood what they had, what
they could, and couldn't have together. This time, letting go of ungraspable
promises, their bond grew into a comforting assurance fit to renew their
strength, vital to wash away the lull of madness lurking in the darkest rooms
of their fate.
.
Through time, they complicity often had they them confronted
about their relationship. Always, the answer was the same: "Friends of
youth. Companions in arms. Confidants,
at best." But those who listened wouldn't know half of the nuances
of each of these terms. They couldn’t know the visceral desire of a friend
after seven years, of hiding, any more than they could understand the need of a
helping hand after seven, plus three days of constant traumas. When eras and
lives were fleeting notions, the weight of words such as /friendship/ and
/loyalty/ didn’t carry the same weight as it would for normal people. Their
friendship ran far deeper than the embrace of the most generous of women; his
loyalty came strong and unconditional, an unvoiced vow soaring from both
romantic and spiritual desires.
They both learnt that souvenir of past incarnations
sometimes disagreed over platonism.
But she didn't need memories of other lives pulsing through their hands,
linking their foreheads, and taunting her in dreams to know that anymore. They
both seemed to breathe and live on this unvoiced /fin'amor/
that wouldn’t stop inspiring her kingdom's bards - disregarding how both
parties called it a misunderstanding.
Now, the repetition of their lives and the thread of their
fate didn't feel half as hazardous when they had found common grounds. In some
eras, they would connect physically, in others they would be friends,
colleagues, distant or close relatives. Always, their unique paths would come
to cross, and finally, they would be granted the strength -the power- they had so
long pursued, for they had finally found each other through the secret of a
passionate friendship.
The Queen needed no divine enlightenment to know there was
no satisfaction as sweet as the burning heteromance
that belonged to her and her chosen Hero.